I used to remember you

 It’s being a long time I’m trying to interact with you. As you know I don’t have any sources ESC Laptop! Well this the only way I communicate with you? As u mention it in the previous mail may ALLAH keeps you smiling. [well let me tell you one thing! That’s you?] I front of people I try to be a joker as u know the joker always smile? Always hide the things behind the bar or you may say just behind the mask, the same thing I do with me and the interesting fact is that people think I am really happy which is not true.  

Anyway, the main concern? I just want to know about yourself and your health? I know that I am far-far way form the things but too far from your heart. I know that I’m a heartless person who always thing about self- just me me me …  

I realized lot of things, the pain which you are suffering from which I made for you. I just apologies. But always try to remember I have not played with your feelings even I won’t think of it to play such a bad role. Coming towards me? I really miss you badly there is not a single day where I won’t recall you. I always do, I just looked at the pictures the videos the time which we have spent together and every small thing. I have no words to express my feelings towards you. This are the chronological way I used to remember you and knew well you do the same; and you feel the same what I feel for you.  

The Letter

 

The Letter

 

I am leaving. Where? I don’t even know myself,

but I have decided that I will not walk with this illusion anymore.

I had just one dream, to be respected, honor for my name,

and a home with true relations,

but maybe all this was not in my fate.

You gave me a lot of respect,

you really cared for me,

you never even tried to cross your limits,

but for the world this relation only has one name,

illegitimate.

After all,

love was from me and one sided,

you were only being compliant and respectable.

I am just taking a few old dresses of use to me.

I have left the wealth, blessings you bestowed on me back here.

I just have one last wish,

I don’t know if that will be fulfilled or not,

that even if after my death,

I can get your support,

my eyes will wait for you.

 

 

Yours R